Damn. Finally a chance for me to ever experience my first earthquake... but I slept through it... Didn't feel a thing.
Tuesday I felt bad and felt really slow and drowsy. Monday was so much fun because I got to experience a lot of time with Turtle alone and I made a first website with some pictures. I hope to make more later.
I still owe you a good long story on how everything has gone so far.
Here's an attempt: friday morning 5 o clock, got up with Hannah to get to Schiphol Airport. I don't wanna go, but the first plane flight is excellent and luxurous - I can't sleep. In Houston Texas the immigration service acts difficult on me because I used to have a student visa. The second flight to SF is horrible. Lots of ugly 'stupid Americans' who don't know how to stall their luggage. I arrive at airport and go down an escalator when suddenly someone calls my name: it's Turtle! And zie's going down, so i drag my tired body up the wrong way and hit everyone in front of me. Turtle and I hug and kiss and I shake with nerves, probabbly from anticipation. We take the Bart (subway) to the city. The weather is great. I feel sleepy tired and unreal. But when Max (Turtles wife) arrives I start feeling a bit more relaxed. Near their house is a bar where we go and eat - it's a typical yankee place with a big TV screen with baseball - I kinda like it. That night we got to the previous mentioned Exiles meeting. I feel like I am in another dimension.
Next day I sleep until noon. Turtle wakes me up. I go out for coffee with Max (she gives me a great mini tour in Castro and Mission) after that Max and I work a lot on my G4 powerbook. In the evening we went to eat sushi. That evening we went somewhere but i cannot remember what it was (already, it must have been the Lexington bar and an art show) and I felt weak and emotional and had a good talk with Turtle about expectations. I took a lot of effort to travel to the other side of the globe for this virtual crush that ze is - but now we see each other in reality it's a bit puzzling and scary and different. At the same time Turtle feels shocked I am actually here. I cried and didn't know what to feel for a while. I felt Turtle has really high standards that I cannot live up to and it made me feel very unsafe for a while. I want to feel safe with people... I do know Max and Turtle are good people and I appreciate them as gems in this bad world.
Sunday, woke up at 9 feeling really sad and numb - but strangely enough also reliefed and felt much better later at 11 when the others woke up. Sandy, Ari, Kyra and Michelle came in and brought food - at noon we went to Folsom, which was extremely crowded and amazing. I am very positive about the amount of visible kink there. But I still felt jetlagged and nothing really got into my brain. As if I wasn't processing things. We didn't go out for dinner but went up to this ladies' superdeluxe overstyled but comfortable apartment and ate stuff there while I met lots of people I didn't know and tried to sleep in front of the fire - i felt freaky. After that we went to the Cherry Bar where I met people from Tribe, which was really cool. But the atmosphere was bout to change... when one of our genderqueer friends came up and said they were expelled from that night 'because there were complaints' about him which was not true. It was mainly the owner being a bitch. We had a big scene and decided to attack all boards, forums and mailinglists about it.
Monday I got to talk with Turtle a bit more and we spent an absolutely wonderful and fabulous in town. Zie took me to the ocean beach where i got to see my first ocean ever. We also saw a bathing pools' ruins and climbed up lots of rocks and hills and saw a great view over the bay. In the evening we mwt up with Max, Celestine (a porn star) and Shannah and ate at an incredible vegetarian resaurant where everything looked like meat but wasn't and still tasted great.
Tuesday (today) was really slow although I managed to go to Fisherman's Wharf and the Musee Mechanique. I got news from 111 Minna gallery (they want to announce my project on their site! I am doing a public project on thursday and friday there.) and I called Pang who i haven't seen in 6 years - I am meeting her this thursday, the same day on which I could have a date with Turtle, so it's going to be hectic.
I would be happy to get to know zir all over again.
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